So I haven’t been to this blog in a while, which is a good sign of course. And it’s not like things are getting bad again, it’s just….. i’m bored. I’m bored and lost and I just need someone.
I just need someone
But that’s the thing, people will tell you “you don’t need someone, you want someone” which is all well and true but when it comes down to it, everyone needs someone.
And it’s not that I need someone to keep on going, it just gets boring on your own. I need someone that’ll keep me active, that’ll invigorate me, someone to just connect with, on that level that only a relationship provides.
I guess I miss that feeling, that connection to another human being.
~I guess I just feel lonely~
and you used me
to light your cigarette
dulldrops (via dulldrops)
Trzecia czesc nocy [THIRD PART OF THE NIGHT]
1971 Andrzej Żuławski
It’s becoming more apparent that people don’t want to hang out with me, or at least some people. Normally I wouldn’t mind, i’m use to some friends drifting and some staying by but this time i’m losing one’s that actually matter. It’s like, I know at some point people will stray and go on with their lives, I know friends will come and go, but you’ve been around for too long dude. And now we hardly speak, and it was seemingly over the course of a week. The scariest part of all of it is that i’m just fine with it. Maybe being just fine with it is my way of dealing with it, I can manage on my own, I don’t need to rely on other people…
I just don’t like being alone